"Where words fail, music speaks." -Hans Christian Andersen
Music. The language of love, the language of God, the language of the soul. Music is such a gift, the ability to truly speak without words.
I love being a musician. Besides being poor and having limited playing opportunities, music is one of the greatest gifts God has given me, and has greatly increased the quality of my life.
There have been and will be countless times in my life when I find myself unable to speak of how I feel. I thought I was a good communicator, but turns out, being able to talk a lot and relate to people well doesn’t mean I can truly communicate and express what is deep down inside. To be able to say with words how circumstances throughout my day really made me feel does not come naturally. In fact, it takes a lot of work and determination on my part.
"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent." -Victor Hugo
Desperate to release my emotions, whether positive, excited, energetic feelings or the depressed, lonely feelings of a disappointed and broken heart, I find my haven in playing. So there I go, in search of a good piano (I don’t yet have one of my own) to sit in solitude for as long as I need, my soul crying out through the colors and timbres of those melodies. Or, I pick up my flute and pull out my favorite pieces I have played throughout the years, or excerpts of my favorite symphonies I have performed with friends in the past. Sometimes the music just comes and trickles out of my fingers, not from the notes and staff from the printed page, but from the wordless language imprinted on my heart.
"Music is the vernacular of the human soul." -Frederick Delius
Too often as I play, I have to stop and let myself cry for a while, or rejoice in the reflection of a good, warm memory. I am finally feeling what I could not express earlier, my heart saying through my music what my voice cannot through words.
"Music is an outburst of the soul." -Geoffrey Latham
Music is my prayer, my offering, and my outlet of communication. I know myself better, God better, and through music allow myself to feel things I normally would ignore or feel scared to feel.
"…God gave us music that we might pray without words." -Anonymous